I finished implementing comments on my blog today. I keep finding phrases to talk it down - “no big deal”, “small potatoes”, “going to add more”. I’m going to avoid using those words and just say, it feels good to get something out there. It just feels nice to set a goal and deliver on it.
Hello, Anxiety, my old friend. Another deployment night has come, and the stress that comes with it. I’ve been through a hundred (or more) of these in my career now and they still terrify me. I can’t be alone in this, can I? You work so hard, you write test cases, you execute load tests and you talk through worst case scenarios.. and yet when it comes time to press the “go” button, something deep inside me screams “No!”.
Last week I began working through Algorithms by Robert Sedgewick, and Kevin Wayne. Or I should say, trying to work my way through it again. I believe this is my first honest-to-goodness attempt at fighting through it. For me it’s a heavy book and can be a real challenge to understand, not because it’s poorly written (on the contrary, nice work!).
I recently finished reading Malcom Gladwell’s book, Talking to Strangers. In it he talks about how challenging it is to understand one another, and why. There are a few key concepts and missunderstandings that he hones in on to try and address why we’re so bad at understanding one another. He then summarizes these concepts using them as a lense to view the 2015 arrest of Sandra Bland that ended in her suicide.
Somewhere around the end of July, I stopped. I stopped reading books, I stopped playing games, I stopped programming for fun. I managed to spend some time with friends, and family but it was generally a struggle. I wasn’t ever interested in updating my blog, and I stopped working on my big personal project.
I'm a father of three and a software engineer for both hobby and trade. I enjoy tabletop role-playing and board games - especially of the heavily social variety! I also occasionally participate in game jams with friends.
I'm particularly interested in self-improvement in all of those things. I enjoy progressing through a new skill and learning ways of maximizing my time and focus.